I cannot find words to describe the reality I faced on this beautiful day of our Lord’s nativity. A day I’ve spent almost three decades of my life celebrating with relaxed anticipation for a new year, love permeating my soul, and even more recently, with future thoughts of embarking on a journey to start my own family with the most dedicated lady I knew in the world. Such was not the case this year. It was a day spent doing house chores, reading books, mediating on a new blog series and “ mourning ” for the perfection of those things which had become imperfect in my life and in the life of many around me. I remember dreaming of spending this day in a distant plateau enjoying the cold weather, with temperatures aspiring to those of winter in the temperate climates of the world, preparing a lovely Christmas dinner with love, incarnate in flesh and blood as the reality of a woman, strong and true, and with a smile that brightens up my day. It is one thing to have a dream yet anothe...