Concupiscence is not
lust. It’s only desire: a fleeting thought. You haven’t sinned yet, you just
need to battle concupiscence and make sure it doesn’t blow up into full lusting
of the senses. This vice is so sleek it can get you feeling like it’s already
got you. I’m not talking about just sex here. The lust for power, lust for
love, lust for fame, lust for money, lust for pleasures, lust for the beautiful
and the good. This guy can feed the fox’s sin with an endless list of agendas
to dwell on.
Gowther, to everyone’s
surprise, was an empty doll with the ability to influence and manipulate people’s
desires. Ironically, he suffered an insatiable longing to understand the hollowness
of human affection. Gowther the Goat’s sin of Lust was so awesome he was like
layers upon layers of unending mysteries. I really can’t wait to draw more from
that character’s deathly desire to understand people’s desires.
I’m sure we can guess
what I lusted for the most. You’re wrong it wasn’t sex. I lusted for love the
most. I wanted someone’s love more than I wanted God’s. It’s funny how easily I
fell into this idolatry. I upheld the ancient pagan anthem “amor vincit omnia” (love conquers all). I championed love so much I
even confused its authenticity with the burning passion I had for being wrapped
in my lover’s arms. I had all of her love for me but I wanted to have all of
her love for God too. Every time there was a dialogue to end fornication I
would flare up. Every time it was time to face the consequences of the sin I
would become a coward and chicken out. Many times I wanted to change, I tried
to change but what I was running from I found myself doing (cf, Romans VII:15-20). I was
a real goat whose desire for yam was greater than the fear of the consequences of stealing
it. The beginning of the end as she called the fall was when I gave into cowardice.
But it wasn’t the goat that most of the damage, it was the power of the
dragon’s sin because that guy knows no limits when it's flame on.
Every day I
pray that I live past these mistakes because nothing we desire in this life is
more important than our desire to love God. No one we love in this world is
more important than how much we love our Lord Jesus Christ who first loved us
and gave his life for us. Shalom!
"...above all things put on Love, which is the bond of perfection.
And let the peace of God rule in your hearts to which you are called in one body; and be thankful..." (Colossians III:14)
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